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there are so many hypocritical thoughts in my head. I  like something or believe in someone your head should agree, many times mine doesnt.If I say
my favorite color is purple my head doesnt agree. this body often does things
I cant handle.its like its on automatic pilot at times.so much confusion.

people

The people often talk to me,  but they are critical, violent and always trying to make there voices heard. there called the people because if someone has a voice and a way of thinking  and there own likes and dislikes I call them people everyone dosnt have people I think very few of us do and then again
maybe all of us do ? they are the people that live inside. Some people call them angels and some call them demons I call them people.

Well I guess Ill start out by saying. that I have the most widley popular diagnosis thats being given these days and, its Bi-polar disorder.
disorder is acually a very good word for this because there is quite a bit of that and something else that you wouldnt think would fit with the Bi-polar
and that is OCD obsessive compulsive disorder. why? becaue one is ridgid and one is chaos.
Now im by no means a doctor of any kind and this blog is just a way for me to say what i really feel.
It is in no way intended to be advice. thing will sound allitle crazy at time and  lucide other times this is meant for me to remember how caos can take over at the drop of a hat and anyone who wishes may read.

Just me

This is my first blog .I almost always have a lot to say but almost noone to hear it, so this is my way of talking and expressing mymelf to others.
Just a bit about my self. IM a 50 yr old widow and not looking for a reletionship and Ill explain more about that later. 50 is my age but i became a widow in 1998. I live in kentucky and I and another person own our house.I have a number of health issues, physical and emotional.
I work very hard at balancing life so I can navigate with as little harm done as possible. ( to me or anyone else.)
I know this is starting out a little boring but it gets better.